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My Internet at the house finally got shut off today, but it’s okay since it won’t be my house much longer. I’m posting from a library. The landlord has moved for summary judgment against me, so it’s in the hands of the judge now, meaning it’ll only be a couple more days before the sheriff comes to formally evict me from the premises. I have managed to score a small storage unit for my furniture, which is being paid for by Social Services. So there’s that, at least.

It’s been over eight years since I’ve had to sleep in my car. I never thought I would be in this position again. The pills, the magic pills, they are keeping me from breaking down but I just wish a truck would hit me.

I’ve gotten a few nice notes from people who’ve been wondering what’s up with my lack of updates for a while now, and I thought I’d better pop in and make a public post to explain.

Real life is kicking my butt lately, pure and simple. Due to business not picking up the way the bosses told us it would’ve by now, I’m having some very serious financial struggles at this time. This contributes directly to such things as deepening depression, periodic Internet and electricity shutdowns due to non-payment of bills, and more time spent away from home attempting to secure additional income and possibly a backup roof over my head in the event that the rent becomes unpayable, all of which in turn has led to me not updating my doofy little photocomic.

I sincerely apologize for the lack of communication; when times are tough like this, I always have a tendency to withdraw into my shell and avoid human contact, but it occurs to me that this long-standing habit of mine has never actually served any useful purpose and is probably only making things worse. So, those of you who are still reading: I’m sorry. I’m having a rough time right now. I appreciate everyone who keeps checking in, sending notes, and leaving comments. I’ll try to at least post some pictures, even if I can’t get it together enough to scrape a conversation onto them, but I’m thinking things won’t be back to normal here for at least another week or two.

Finally, in the (admittedly unlikely) event that you’re not feeling the sting of the current Economic Fun Times and you want to throw me a bone, I do have a PayPal donate button on the About/FAQ page. If you send me your mailing address along with a few dollars, I’ll get a hi-res photo print to you with a love note from me on the back. Or, you can buy prints directly from my gallery on ImageKind.

Again, apologies for the radio silence. I’ll try to do better.

I’m up late, can’t sleep, mind wandering, night-addled, and a little punchy, and I had a thought. Actually, I’ve been having this thought off and on for months but it keeps slipping away from me, but since it’s almost four AM and I have nothing better to do, here’s a question: How would people feel if I started using touched-up photos on the site — adjusting things like contrast, levels, brightness, etc., not actually changing the contents of my photos but just fiddling with cosmetic things like that? I’ve been a “purist” for the past year or so in that I’ve just posted the photos as they are, warts and all, but lately I’ve had a bit of an itch to tinker.

I’m sure I’ve vastly overestimating the extent to which anybody cares about this sort of thing, but again, night-addled and punchy. Tell me what you think, if anything.